have you seen "JORDAN"? he sits at his desk typing away monkey on a typewriter Figuring out what it means to be
he seeks out may 26th 27th 28th and lands on the 9th and says Happy birthday!
his fingers fumble as he writes it's your 20th birthday, spend it with your utmost religiosity and paranoid necromutilation
Because you only wanna get higher and higher! i will rock your body until you bleed
bedsores from your fingers like an unwrapped tulip dancer off the coast of miami. Have a drink of shitty grocery store alcohol and enjoy your night/day! Your birthday is here and you need to spend it right!
you're so scared to get older because it's a representation of your oncoming destruction however Your brain chooses to see time as linear linear linear linear linea
The room you're in is still the same, the only thing that changes is the way your nails are bitten down to the quick like yet again you can bite down and slow your perceived car crash in real time. I am not self-destructive if the watercolour painting that makes me spins off its pigments quick enough, i have a Practised transformation, i am the same i have never changed
You are nobody if not a failure
But it's okay he says because if you're a failure it says nothing about me! You are nothing if not a failureeeeeeeSICK HUMAN BEING!!!!!! if i were born the same year as you i'd have been older a couple months ago. You play and talk as though my idols are worse than yours but i have an icon to follow and you have your delusionsGet off the high chair you have never lived in your life. you are no better than me if i choose to be happy and you do not. It's not my fault, you're unbelievable.
Happy birthday! I love you.
he thinks to himself, am i done? No i am not, replies the typewriter and its OFF TO THE RACES AS HE WRITES MOREMay 9th why don't you prove you're alive? the more you read this silly birthday letter the more time and resources of being able to see and comprehend are shaved off you like dead skinYou are molting and do not realize and yet i want to see you do something with your life. did you only get your diploma because you had to? Are you trusting of your authority so much you bleed for your mother when she says Move out you're 20?
I want to see you alive. do not falter and prove your humanity because there is no god other than me .It is a finite resource your life and when you look back what will i see? i dont want to see shoes that were only bought because you had to or memories of you reading because you were told. go get your teeth knocked in, burn your resume . Figure out what you need
I love you.